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i won't go into detail but for about a week i was sort of in a constant state of anxiety..not paranoia or anything like that...just anxiety....even had to stop smoking bud (i know....idk how it got that bad) because it "freaked me out". after years of being stoned all day i stopped for about a week...i decided i was fine now...so i pulled out my sack and ripped it one time. ONE fucking time and all those bad feelings just came back to me. i felt like i was fucking crazy.

but the problem is that herb had been really good for me...it helped me see things from other people's perspectives and it really helped me straighten out everything in my life...from work...to relationships...to just being overall happy and thankful for every day and just enjoying the simple things in life.

now that i "CAN'T" smoke anymore...i'm simply ruining my life...my relationships..i can't get work done...all i want to do is get drunk every day to not deal with this anymore. has anyone ever felt they had to stop smoking...did you ever start up again....has anyone ever had bad "flashbacks" when smoking or panic attacks? i've tried to talk with my close friends about this but they just don't understand and i don't blame them.

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as ive said in a previous post that was similar to this one. im sure if you step back and do a little more searching, you will find that the pot is not the issue at hand. that something else is bugging you and the pot is letting you know this. i think the enjoyment will still be there for you, but you might need some time to figure it out. a lot of times it seems like the green may be the issue, when really its something else.

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i know what the problem is. it's that i had an experience that made me see things differently. now whenever i smoke everything just seems "not right" anymore. i'll watch tv or something, and everything just seems so "alien" to me. not like aliens or anything...it just doesn't seem right. (i know you're probably like yeah...thats what weed does you idiot, but trust me it's not like that) i don't see weed as a drug anymore (i know it's not...and i know probably most people on this forum know that it's not but they still see it as "getting high") and when i smoke it i just feel really spiritual in a BAD way...it used to be the other way around. i really don't know how to explain it...i know i sound like a crazy bitch, but does anyone KIND OF undestand what i'm saying? or has anyone ever felt like that before?

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I do actually know what you're feeling. I've experienced the same thing. As for dealing with it, that's another story entirely. I have to say that all the advice I could give you would be irrelevant, I believe (this is me personally now) that you're experiencing a different awareness of what the herb is capable of. It's not something unpleasant directly that you're experiencing, just something very unfamiliar. My suggestion would be to make some real quiet time for yourself, no phone, no guests, no music and no television. Find your most comfortable atmosphere and prepare it, candles, incense, what have you. Then smoke some, less than you usually do and really focus on the effects, see where the high is going. You will feel some unpleasant situations or sensations, don't dwell on these, experience them and allow them to pass on. As you do this, you may experience things you never have before while smoking. The experience may never be the same exactly, as it was but it can be a very rewarding and enjoyable new type of experience. Just my two cents.

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thanks for the advice i really appreciate it but me sitting around alone in a room with no sound just focusing on the high makes me feel FUCKING HORRIBLE...my thoughts are racing and i can't get them to just calm down.. and well....i really don't know what to say. this honestly fucked up my whole life (i'm the type of person who needs to smoke to get by). it's not the addiction part...i'm done going through withdrawls...i just don't know. maybe i will be able to come back to smoking in a couple of years...i understand that spiritual experience you get from smoking now may be right for you, but it is not right for myself. it's just makes me feel fucking insane in a world where we live so unspiritually.

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i posted this on another forum 7-30-2008. this is my story.



so last night i bought some weed i pay normal price for some swagg. i made a bong out of like a 2 liter coke bottle. i took about 5 or 6 hits. and i was stupid high. i went pick everything up. went inside. and i started feeling really ill. well not long after that. i started uncontrollable shaking and my heart felt like it was gonna blow up. at this point i thought i was gonna die. well i so how or another i was able to grab the phone and dial 911. i walked to the front of my house and unlocked the front door and opened it. i was fully aware of what was going on the whole time. my chest was felt like it was on fire. i could hear the ambulance sirens in the distance and i was praying to god that i would live till they got here. i prayed like i never did before. oh and my mom's side of the family has really bad heart problems. well they got here and i went and layed on the floor i was still crazy twitching. well when they was bringing me from my house to the hospital. i had an out of body experience. i seen my grandfather who had died of a heart attack at 55 or something like that. and all of a sudden i started to feel like i was dieing the same way he did. like i was feeling the same thing he was. then all of a sudden i started to calm down for a bit then i started to shake and uncontrollable move again. and i seen my aunt who died of her heart drowning her by feeling her lungs up with blood at the age of 25. and i started to choke i couldn't breathe at all. i feel like i was dieing just like her like i was sharing her pain. and we get to the hospital and i remember telling the nurses that i am ok with dieing b/c i said my forgiveness. and if i went to hell then so be it. and they were all freaking out. then for the next hour or so i just kinda went to a i can't talk kinda thing like i could see everything going on but i couldn't move. but at the same time. i was shaking and i was moving like the exorcist girl. i remember looking at the heart rate monitor and my heart rate was like at about 160. and at that time i was thinking i was gonna be the only person to die from smoking weed. but then all of a sudden i decide to live and that was the first thing i said it almost 2 hours. oh and when i was in the ambulance i remember looking down and i could see my lungs and i could see how fast i was breathing. but after i stated i was gonna live. i started going back to normal. did ex-rays and everything came out normal. like it was just a bad trip. i got the weed examined and it was just normal weed swagg. when i told the cops what happen they started lolling b/c that was a first for them. they was lolling at my condition just the fact that all i did was smoke some weed. my whole body was numb for the whole thing. and i am just saying my prays that it will never happen again. my chest still hurts really bad. it felt like it was on fire last night. my aunt that was in the hospital said it was bad but it wasn't as bad as i was making it out to be. but i wasn't the only one to smoke some of that weed and it didn't affect anyone else like that. so i don't really know what caused it. i am just thankfully to be alive right now. as for my friend that was here and left when i started shaking and didn't call 911 for me is no longer my friend. and if i see him i will not even look at him. i didn't get a ticket the officer said he was gonna let me off the hook tonight. so all and all. i feel better today.


present day:
it took about 2 months before i could smoke again. it took me changing some major things in my life. i was over stressed. and it caused a major panic attack. well the first time i smoke after this i thought my heart was racing again. but once i calmed down it was all good. i am back to my smoking ways. but i am a happier person now. the main advice i could give you it to see what you don't like in your life right now. and change it. make sure you are happy before you smoke again.

wow hun...sounds like you had a major panic attack. i usually get those if i've had to stop smoking weed for some reason then start again....but woah....that shit was all in your head...you know? i've never had them that bad before...after the first one i was just able to work myself out of them cuz i KNEW that i was just having a panic attack. it's not like that. i've had many of those...trust me..this is different....not a panic attack. just this horrible feeling...like the whole world is fucked up and no one understands it but me. when i'm sober i'm fine (but i wasn't for about a week) and then once i hit my bud i just go back to feeling that feeling. dude...it wasn't the bud that caused this...something else. and i had been going through major depression for a long time in my life and herb helped me come out of it. i'm not depressed any more even without it...there is nothing wrong with my life and i don't even have times where i feel crappy. i know excactly what you're trying to say...i was there a few years ago. i don't know...it feels like i'm tripping or something when i'm stoned...but it's just weed and trust me...i know it's not laced with anything. my best friend is my dealer and we always smoke together and shes fine..everyone we smoke with are fine. are these flashbacks from previous trips? it's just weird because i haven't tripped in so long and now all of the sudden?

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wow.

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That is awful. I wish there was something someone could do, myself included. At least keep us up to date on the situation. All I can say is try different approaches to this problem and don't lose hope. Try every solution you can think of, regardless of its perceived merit, who knows what may work. I'm sending positive thoughts your way.

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thanks so much for the advice you guys. i really appriciate everyone's help. i guess all i can do is lay off it for a while until i forget all about that shit....but who knows when that will be. the only thing that really sucks is that everything around me is about herb...from clothing...to music...to the food i pick out at the store...the movies i have....my friends...my sense of humor...pretty much all the things i enjoyed. well...i guess i have to be positive and just realize that overall, weed made me a way more mellow, understanding, better person...permanently. even though i can't smoke as of now...i'll always be a stoner at heart...and i'm thankful for that. all i can say is keep on blazin...hah...i don't have to tell you guys that. i'll prob still be hangin around here and i'll keep you guys updated.

-christina.

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Have you tried eating it yet? I know that when I have a brownie, I feel way, way different than I do when I smoke. Just a thought to throw in the mix.

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nah i actually haven't....is it more like a body high then a head high? i've actually always wanted to...but don't brownies fuck you up WAY more? just cuz right now if i got super fucked up that would just be not good for me..can you tell me a little more about what the high is like?

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It really is a long lasting body high. You don't have to eat enough to blow you into the atmosphere though. A little bit in some butter, then on a toast can give you a decent low grade buzz.

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well...i guess it doesn't hurt to try? is there any kind of drug you can relate the high to? cuz when i smoke i never really feel a body high...

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Unfortunately I'm not a fan of anything but booze and herb so I don't have a decent frame of reference. Someone on here though, I'm sure does, just give them a minute.

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