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Just recently, I got admitted to Montevista, a private mental hospital. During my time there I was told that my uncle has Schizophrenia and I'm showing signs of it. It's in my genes.
The doctor told me that my pot use was only making my depression and schizo symptoms worse. I of course said fuck the doctor and smoked when I got home anyway.
After a bit, I got a vivid hallucination of me in a park sitting on a bench next to a girl in a red shirt and blonde hair. The weather was nice with a cool breeze. For those two seconds, I was actually a little happy. But then I keep getting waves of major, major depression. And I cry spontaneously. And I haven't cried for years.
The waves last a few minutes. Then I return to normal.
I also get auditory hallucinations. But random shit. Like cats or something. Doesn't happen too often.
I almost cry every time I think about the fact that I will soon be a Schizophrenic.

And the thing is, I was perfectly fine before I smoked that joint.
This fucking sucks because I love weed so much. Not just to get high, but I just love everything about it.
It's been a passion of mine to grow some of the best bud and just give it away. And I am not going to let this stop me. I just won't be able to enjoy it myself.

I may not be able smoke anymore, but I'm forever a stoner.

Soooo does this mean you're not gonna smoke anymore?

Im sorry to hear that.

Weed takes a back seat to schizophrenia. My brother has it and it's THE WORST thing in the world. I'm sorry to hear about this Guy. I hope it's just precautionary and that you don't get it. Should you end up having this desease take your medicine.

My brother just got out of the hospital because he refused. He became 'difficult' and was placed in the hospital. He now has a competency hearing. He thinks he's fine........

Anyway. That's neither here nor there.

I'll be thinking good thought for you man. Oh, and I'll occassionally get a bout of emotions when I'm stoned. Only when I smoke alone, though, so try not to put too much into the crying thing.

Take care.

I feel for you man, I really do. Have you tried just smoking a few hitters instead of a whole spliff? Maybe in your case less is more. I feel like your Dr. is ofcourse gonna tell you it makes it worse, but do you think it makes it worse? If you think it makes it worse then it might be better to quit, atleast for awhile. One thing is for sure bud isnt going anywhere it will be readily available if you decide to start again. Hope everything works out for you man..oh & thats fucking great that you would consider growing & giving it away just outta your love for the herb..whether you choose to keep smoking or not..you are a true stoner! take care

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sorry to hear that,

it must suck to have to quit something that is amazing
but maybe once you get your stuff under controll and are comftrable you can start slowly again.

wish you the best in the times to come